Are you noticing a pattern here? I’ll get really into the blog for a while and then go radio silent for months. Well, I’m not making any promises, but I’m hoping this time it will stick. You see, I’ve been doing some soul-searching over the past few months…
I started a new job back in April, which has been a great change for me. I’m a creature of habit and routines, so the structure and steady paycheck of a corporate job is definitely what I needed. As with any big change, it takes some time to get into a groove and that’s where the blog fell to the wayside. But because I can’t sit still for more than 5 minutes, the itch to get back into a creative outlet has been nagging at me for a few months now.
I debated for a while whether or not to start the blog again. I didn’t want to start it up for a month only for it to fizzle out again. But over the summer, I discovered some really great books and podcasts (and several glasses of wine shared with Kevin) that led me to do some needed self-reflection. I realized that in the past, I looked at my blog as a way to get out of an unhappy situation (usually a job) that I was in. I would put so much pressure on myself to make the blog successful and get new business, thinking that would make me happier. But by trying to be like these uber-successful celeb status bloggers, I was just feeling worse about myself. Nothing I had was ever good enough, and even when I reached a certain level or acquired whatever item I was lusting over, there was always something else to be had. And so I just got burnt out. Keeping up with Joneses is a tiring game.
This isn’t to say I’ve completely figured out life and don’t care about what people think of me anymore – my vulnerability to the comparison game always has and probably always will be one of my greatest flaws – but I have started to develop an awareness of when that icky Jones-y feeling kicks in, and it’s usually after reading those perfect fashion blogs or Instagram and feeling like I just have to have those Valentino shoes.
So I decided if I was going to start blogging again, I would want it to be a place that would still inspire people, but not in a way that would make people feel bad about themselves. I hope that my recipes, workouts, and entertaining tips will inspire you in a way that is attainable, not aspirational. I want to share content and ideas that will help elevate the everyday with what’s already in your home, so that you can savor and enjoy what you already have.
This has always been a personal struggle for me – accepting myself, savoring and enjoying what I already have – so we’ll see how this goes. Won’t you come along for the ride?